Asking because I remember telling my mom I wanna kms and she got upset and told me she regret giving birth to me.

Later when confronted, she told me she only said it because she was angry, that she didn’t mean it.

Nowadays she tells me she loves me (I mean she always told me she loved me, but then there are a lot of memories of me getting yelled at… so idk… wtf), that everyone in my family loves me (really mom? pretty sure my brother hates me to death).

Bipolar much?

(Pls don’t spam comments with “see a therapist”, working on it… healthcare system sucks to navigate)

  • zzffyfajzkzhnsweqm@sh.itjust.worksEnglish
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    5 hours ago

    Your specific situation you will have to handle yourself (with a help of therapist and / or friends of course).

    However I read a quote from therapist who also happened to be a father. It goes something like that:

    It is impossible to not hurt and scar your children. Parents are only humans. And parenting is really really really hard. We crack some times. (Note some parents hurt and scar their kids way worse than the others. Also some parents are worse at being parents and some are just evil, etc…)

    A kid is grown up at the time they learn to forgive their parents for their mistakes.

    (Or even make peace with abuses if it was really bad)

    As a parent or a person you cannot stop making mistakes. The only thing you can do is to apologize. It seems to me your mom did that. The rest is on you - to forgive her for this mistake. (There might be something deeper going on in your family - I am replying with the context I have)

    If you need someone to talk to, you can DM me. However I will be replying when I have time ~ once a day.