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Cake day: May 4th, 2025

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  • Aside from the pandemic showing that half the planet are selfish assholes, I actualy miss being social. Thinking back on my childhood in the 80’s and 90’s my family could afford to be social. Going out to dinner with other couples, going to events, purchasing the nesessary items to be social like golf clubs, boats, grills, etc. There wasn’t this constant anxiety of living paycheck to paycheck as today. I make more than my parents combined and yet after cost of surviving i am sitting on $5 for two weeks as my expendable cash. At that point I have no desire to go out with people as even the gas to get to them would need to be budgeted.

    With money being tight I have found that i was always bowing down to work for fear of being replaced. I worked longer hours than I should have because I’ve always been trying to catch up financialy. Now that I’m in my 40’s I’ve just accepted that I will never have that moment where I reach that plateau and I can take a breath. I will spend the rest of my life tredding water just keeping my head above it. And I wish it was the avocado toast argument boomers give but there is no personal expenses in my life. mortgage (ik I’m lucky), food, utilities, school loans, clothes for the kids and that it. My entertainment comes from the library or is pirated.

    After having this daily stressor constantly pinging in my head I just don’t have the mental capacity to deal with people. My partner is more stess than benefit. There really isn’t any human interaction I have that is fulfilling anymore. I’m honesty just running on autopilot at this point.