I’m really bad at sticking to things. Every time I try to do something slow and good for me, I do it for a month or two tops and I just revert back into the habits that are bad for me.
For example, I did weightlifting for 2-3 months and I had a lot of fun doing it but I just slowly lost interest and stopped. I did daily journaling and meditation and it gave me a lot of peace and clarity but it only took one mental breakdown for me to quit. I read books daily for a month but I eventually got sucked back into consuming mostly digital media.
I know that all of the former activities were good for me and I genuinely enjoyed doing all of them but I just eventually get sucked back into my old bad habits. How do you break away from that?
For some additional information: I get therapy every 2 weeks and I’m not on any medication. Clinically diagnosed with depression and anxiety
Sounds to me like you have learned some things. You’re just looking for encouragement, now, which is totally understandable and very very commendable.
Don’t ever let yourself question your progress as a static benchmark. You question your habits and wish to return to a more productive/happier state… do you see something wrong with that? It’s very human, and we all fall off the horse and have to recover, sometimes
Dust yourself off - take a breathe - keep going, when you can.
Follow your own drum beat and keep focus on those things you wrote about - improving yourself seemed to make you happy. Good luck - You don’t need it. ✌️